Why is it that when we are told to stay at home it is nearly impossible, but when we have plans all we want to do is stay at home?
It is about day twelve for me, since I started to self isolate. This has been one of the hardest things for me to deal with. I feel incredibly alone, anxious, and like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I definitely am one of those people who likes to be over informed because I like to be prepared. I feel like I can be more prepared if I know what is happening or what is coming. I am very much a homebody but for some reason this has been so incredibly painful to just stay put.
My anxiety has been so up and down, I feel like I never really know how I will feel that day. People around the world are dying, layoffs are happening in every direction, the grocery stores look like a full apocalypse is happening. I never thought I would be thinking about how much toilet paper I have and if it’s going to be enough. Fear should not win here, but every day I feel like I should melt into it. I look around and see every neighbor or friend on social media just out and about and it is making me so angry. WHY isn’t anyone taking this seriously? I have been in self-isolation for 12 days to protect myself but also every other human I may come in contact with. While everyone else is just acting like nothing is happening and they still have a life to live. In order for this to end, we have to start treating it seriously. I know around the world the panic levels are very different from country to country or even state to state. However, this is so serious that I need every single person to do their part for humanity and s t a y at h o m e no matter where you live.
Through all of this, my person looked at me and said, “one day at a time, we will get through this.” At that point I felt it, the one thing that every pandemic and crisis, and disaster doesn’t have – love. I took that and have ran with it every day since. This has been the one thing that I have made sure I spread during this and feel every single day. Whether it is from him, my sisters, or my mom (please make sure to call your mom every day, that is the only advice I can give you) I make sure to just call and say I love you, I’m here if you need anything at any point. That is the one thing that an apocalypse can’t take because it was there before and it will be there after.
When the world seems to be crashing in around you, take a deep breath and tell yourself you’re okay, you’re full of love, and that you will get through it because the rest of us are going through it too. Anxiety? Yep, got that. Bills? Yep, got that stress. Mess? YEP. Haven’t washed my hair in 4 days but I’ve been at home every day and have no excuse? Yep, done did that. Fur baby to take care of? Happily have that. Depression? Been there. Isolation? WE ARE ALL IN IT. The one thing that you can take away from this is that we are in the same boat right now no matter which part of life you are in. We are all in the same thing we wore yesterday and went to bed in and then woke up in again this morning. Drinking more coffee than water but I can’t sleep because I am more stressed out than a good night of sleep will allow me to get over. Sh*t happens, what can you do?
It’s called solidarity, sister. In the words of High School Musical.. WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER.
I’m here for you, be there for you too.
Xx HMadz
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