Growth

The biggest thing that I think this time of change has done for us is catapult us all into growth. Whether that is in a career, a move, a life change, etc. we are all being pushed to grow and find what we want to put our roots into. Thinking about that is absolutely terrifying and can cause a lot of panic and anxiety but this is what I have come to terms with. Everything happens for a reason and sometimes plans are meant to be changed.

As I settle into solitude and figuring out where it is I am supposed to be, what I am supposed to be doing, and what it all means for me and my family I keep thinking about the families around the world who have lost members or are struggling in such harder ways than I could possibly imagine. I am so grateful and blessed that my family is all healthy, home, and ticking each day off the calendar like champs. It is absolutely nerve-wrecking to not know what my future is or where I am supposed to shifting to but also, it is pushing me in more ways than I thought it would. I am definitely the planned out kind of person, I know what my life is going to look like (to an extent) in the next year to three years and have always been really prepared for the “where do you see yourself in five years” question. Right now? I don’t know where I see myself in a week or month even and that is so unsettling to me but also okay and that has taken me basically two months in quarantine to be okay with.

This is the first time in my life that I have never been scheduled out with something and that is where I get a little uncomfortable because it’s just not something I am used to. I like that this is making me work a little harder to come out of my comfort zone and push my brain and my creativity more than it ever has been. Don’t get me wrong, there are many days that all I do is watch Love Island U.K. or Greys Anatomy but there are other days that I am researching and creating and living in the comfort of my own home which I am so thankful to have. There is a lot of unknowns, unexpected things, and uncertainty in all of this and it is freaking terrifying. I am such a fixer I just want to fix all tough situations and help everyone I possibly can. I am a strong two when it comes to the enneagram test, also known as ‘The Helper’. Times like these weirdly bring out my best self because I truly just get to work, I find things through the day that I can do or improve, I read so much, I check in with all my people and make sure that everyone is taken care of. I am definitely a nurturer and helper in all situations and this just so happens to bring that out a bit more.

So whether you got laid off, are moving to another state, or just learning more about yourself everyday.. here’s to you. Here’s to every person out there right now bettering themselves and trying to offer tips to their community, solely to encourage growth and prosperity in a time like this. Then on the flip side, here’s to every single person out there terrified and unsure, taking each day one minute at a time because the next minute might be too overwhelming to think about. We are all figuring out who we are, what we like to do, and things that truly make us happy. Happy to be home, healthy, and finding the things that make my brain tick.

Sending you all love and light during this time.

xo,

HMadz